Feelings through the Rain

People hide behind there faces only
Putting feelings in there tears
I’ve seen a different side to you
From yesterday

Flipping through the Mags
Cause there is nothing to watch on TV
Trying to live without me
Is frustrating

You can’t think for your self
Before you know it
You’ve had enough
And just
End up just fighting with yourself


Can’t understand the way you feel
Don’t relies how you’re dealing
With the pain
You’re going through

Slipping through the facts of life
Which only end up hurting you?
The Pointy end
Always ends up cutting through

I’ve got problems
Ruling the wrong way in this world
I wish they were all gone
Finding a way to hold them
All without failing

People hide behind there faces only
Putting feelings in there tears
I’ve seen a different side to you
From yesterday


By Chloe Rae

Without Reservations

Blood spills out the secrets
which you
kept so well hidden
"Say My Name again"

i thought i was safe by your side
how could i of been involved with
a total psycho
you think I'm whispering lies
look in the mirror
see who's lying
you're so untamed
who was i blaming?

Uncorrupted model of lost enemies
finding each other
within your Imagination
clouds the moon with the pain coming through my eyes
filling your heart with lies
now bleeds the truth
hidden in a disguise

I'm not over watching you hurt your self
even though you hurt us too
were desperate for more
were feeding off your everlasting energy source
late nights have us wondering
if we went the right way
About it
it's like you had fallen on our laps
maybe we were pretending
why didn't you care?

blister your soul from ever being
alone with another
why did you make the mistake?
after telling us you knew
how to dodge the dates
from slipping through

it caught up too you
And made you ill
now you can't just slip another pill
you spread your arms
with no where to go
don't bury your thoughts

without reservations

By Chloe Rae

A Beauty Coming Clear

Fairy tale fantasy's

isn't far from

what i want it to be
i was thinking to myself
while you were by my side
how could we make the magic rise

grow wings and fly
you stand there saying beg your pardon
can i give you my Opinion
on how we could touch the sky

shadows all around
uninvited because oh whom they chose to fold there arms
walking on egg shells until town comes to life
rising from the ashes of a once heart aching tragedy
changing directions

sudden Illusions bring motion towards Midnight
watching fairies every where
careless movements Sentence fairies to a life behind glass
in jars for you and me

unhappy with the way you thought it were meant to be
set them free as that's how we want to be
awake from every drop crashing star

memories turn from Maggots to flies

dial a hero for we can not see the way
the world wants to be

static cluster brings a zing to the moment
hide behind the mirror

of ever being seen
only ever being seen

as your own reflection
for there hearts

can never be broken

By Chloe Rae

Thanks for the Memories (NO WAY) Making mistakes is the beginning

Thanks for the Memories has risen
Making mistakes is the beginning
That’s what
Id be thanking you for
Time we spent sleeping on the sitting room floor

William isn’t going to get you
Even if I ask him too
Sleep with both eyes shut
For goodness sake
I was only kidding

Sleep at mine once in a full Moon I promise I won’t frighten you
Ok maybe I was only kidding
You can’t go home it’s not even after two

Morning is rising and surprisingly your still here
Thanks for the mistakes I made
Even though at times you had to hide
Think of the memories
Remember all of those noises
Were you planning to run away?

Ok now turn the blame on you for we don’t want to Lie

Fear dot com had me nearly in tears for you could hardly care
Sleeping like it happens every day
I thought I was gonna pass out
Dreamt about screaming yet you could never hear me

Laugh your self silly
Because I didn’t think it was
The girl always seemed to appear out of thin air
She gave me Goosebumps

Thanks for the Memories has risen
Making mistakes is the beginning

Memories are something but mistakes are changing
You were there to pull me through and at times I was there for you

Im sorry for what I did
But you have to understand how funny it was
Its funnier then my face in the sand

By Chloe Rae

Chicago Dreaming

blue is the colour of the world i dreamt waking up too
green for everything earthy gives the world a better feel
yet for i am not near likely to ever wake up to something so peaceful
as i live in the dead smack middle of Chicago
the place were musicians dreams are herd

stars are spotted yet for me stuck in a 2 bedroom studio
apartment with my Uncle Nile
more likely recognized as Mr. Denial by other People passing the loft
french toast in the morning is a strict routine

As i how do i say? Lost without ever being found my parents 12months ago
i wont tell you what happened other then the truth
which you can chose to believe or not
my dad wasn't any Harrie Porter yet he knew things
and my mother well she was his Sidekick
they weren't spy's nor were they undercover agents
they didn't work for anyone as such

oh right they were stalkers
i first found out on my 6th birthday when a letter undressed
arrived and me thinking it was for me

opened it
the letter was painful i remember my mother saying
i can still picture her crying over the ordeal
her tears stuck the paper like the spirit in music
Uncle Nile had one rule in his house and that was to always have fun
which was hard in a lifestyle in which we lived in
i did not attend school

but during the day id read the daily times online
Google Images of people to make me feel better about being myself
being 16 at the moment isnt fun, i should be dating boys , getting into trouble ,
prank calling the teachers of my attending High school

yet here i am

feeling paralyzed my whole world was put in the freezer and froze time
now that its out in the open its now a global warming hazard
cut me blank handed for i am not Emo as the goof
ball at the video store

singing oh baby cut me up with scissors I'll bleed
you down town but sugar you always going to be sweeter

i just don't understand?
i didnt even want to ask
cause they are equally self centred
and don't think outside the sad face they live behind
so as you can work out i don't rent out a lot of DVDs
its the views and the talk shows for me

well uncle Nile was very rich in my views of him
or more lucky as he was left 6 wills in one year including my parents
they didn't leave me anything

but i know being with uncle Nile i wont have to worry about anything

every morning around 5am Nile would take off for work
and i would get up and stand my stage

and rock out the building till there 7am
alarm clocks went off

i never got caught for my hardcore lifestyle mornings
cause we lived around 2 deaf woman

id sit at the dinner table and write until what i had to say sounded to sad
to continue
I'd get josh who was Mrs Fine's grandson ,
he was double my age
but he was entertainment which i was lacking and he liked my
interest in writing and liked my style

we'd go down to the Mall which was right across the main road
aw the smell of fresh bread still lingers
around mixed with the smell of 2nd hand smoke

TO BE CONTINUED

Thinking untamed

Holding down the fought
i think im tamed"
why do you like to complitcate something so simple
i just wanna let go and RUN!!!!

i cant take this no more
you see my face when im mad and
it brings you a brighter day how sad
serious and your crawling on the floor get up
im being

S.E.R.I.O.U.S


why cant you think of me always of you
iv held the secrets for too long
keeping quiet is so wrong
im gonna go wild soon
why cant you take me seriously, get up of the floor


were not in a circus
frightfully im tamed
makes you look like a total jerk unwinding in your own cage
someone call the number for real life sociality
please for once take me


S.E.R.I.O.U.S.L.Y

By Chloe Rae

Carindale driving

Visions of you still
Pass my mind like the wellington changing winds
Sight a valley and do a removal of all the
Danger like on the underbelly
Sick of feeling what I can’t simply express

Tried of writing something so odd
Why can’t we all travel the opposite way?
So ill never have to make eye contact

Silver firms the motion of fear in your eyes
Hearing words in my head that I wish were dead

Tried everything known to man to clear the unwanted
Movement on this land

Kiss my faith until order is made
I’m hoping there is a huge delay
Cradle the peace all arms wrapped wide
Forget all the troubles that made us over lap

Slamming the door which I thought never had been open
The thunder outside is beaming up the lightning

Scared to the soul of losing control
Stand aside ill let you lead as for I no longer feel the need

Back seat driver has no patients
For I’m over hearing all his complications

Call me someone who cares yet
I’m traditional and like
The old plain piece of paper
Labelled with everything which I care about
Hopefully enough to even know you
Agree for I am
The one standing here wishing you were me

Will i ever live up to your expectations? Of ever being free
Black barrows heat up in the January
Hot summer sun for we are just passengers on the run
Show offs every where drive around like they have no care

Who will be holding there hand when the day has come to a stand still end
The lights are annoying
Makes you feel like running towards the sky

Lonely tears wait by a unshielded stop
No smoke in sight yet he is in a danger zone for
Unsolved cures

Traffic lady isn’t happy
Why could she even think of being sad?
Wave a wand and make her feel proud

By Chloe Rae

Driving just to get lost

I’d live to see a brighter day
Blurred out with your heart break scars

The pain you lust cries in your reflection
Break all that hides your true pain

Write down all that’s left
Rule every line which you lost
Cause there is no turning back
Traffic pulsates through me
As it’s all that I can hear

Change direction and prove your hero-ness
To everyone that cares

Arrows point in the direction of getting lost
Im forbidden to change my own mind

Town is a blaze
But hidden is broken glass
Which everyone once in a while
Like to walk over
Wondering what brought us here

Blow away the countries talent beam
The unwanted
Drain the fear of ever leaving here

Count the toes to make a right observation
The tar is lifting but my friends arm keeps twitching

You were born a true antibiotic baby fighting only
What could kill you?

Being held up by people who can’t think for them self’s
How long before they switch on
And were able to move again

By Chloe Rae

BETTER IS DONE

I always said hold your breath
Now I wanna say breathe it all in
Not a change of thought
At all I’m just bored of

Confusing unfulfilled minds
In breaking there hopes of there
Dreams coming true

I feel like I’ve been rude wrapping my hands
Over my ears so I don’t have to hear you

Believe me closing your eyes doesn’t work
I’ve tried
I’ll become the twinkle in your left eye

Have you ever tried screaming?
I have until it hurts
Stop reading what you can’t afford
In the sense

You’re never going to understand
So pick your self off the floor
Close the door, Grab a pen

And let’s begin, I’ll scream until I can no longer hear
The thoughts in my Mind

You’ll write until there is
Nothing more

The more said the better is done

By Chloe Rae

Crazy Painful

All that I’ve herd from you was total bullshit
Why don’t you just go drown your self in your
Own sins

I'll take advice when you turn nice
Rehab did
You no harm
Admit you look the part and stop hiding in the
Dark

The day will rise like the morning sun admit it
Before you get the edge to run


Crazy painful
You really had your life on a spinning wheel
On your favorite game

Pick the right player
Cross your fingers and hope you won

When will you face what all went wrong?
Stop living in a life where you are
Number One


You are like the padlock on a kid’s bike
Locked with a missing key

Why didn’t you ever make copies will there ever be a chance of someone getting
Through too you

You live in an odd world
One which is so cold?

Just stay here for one more night tomorrow
Will be grand think
Of the release


The release of never catching anything
Ever again
You won’t be solo tomorrow

We will stand for what
We believe is right
We are willing to pick up a fight

I won’t stop till I hear it from the judge’s lips


If you’re scared hire a lawyer instead
Wake up only dreaming

I’ll take advice when you turn nice
Rehab did
No harm


Let’s just bang on those drums
No one can hear my heart screaming
Out for you

Oh so cliché
My heart is just numb


By Chloe Rae

NO REGRETS

I feel like I’ve just filled out my Plark
Don’t you all agree R.I.P is so like old fashion?
Leaving behind what I thought I wanted now I know
For sure it’s what I need

Gravity wasn’t felt when I went smack down
Neither pray nor pay which ever way you want to go
I’ve made my gold slowly now turning into coal

Why did you faint when they told you the truth?
Don’t puzzle yourself now you’ve lost the glue
I’d think about all the places I thought were cool

You’d dribble your words of wisdom all over me until I thought about violet turning blue
Living isn’t the hard part trialing own stability , voicing just to be noticed

Gone with the mist, fuck what they told you stick with what you knew
Always stay true even when you’re running low on failure

Ill watch out for you like I always told you

No regrets

By Chloe Rae

Takes more then a Hand

I cant explain everything
from where you went
to where you are going
ill make sure I'm around to catch those tears from either side of the moon
corrupted agony Tears and Silver Lining Tears
what ever its listed I'll be there

ill prove to you that i can be the one that wont give up on you
ill show you the part of life i thought i could only see
ill stop writing I'll and start writing we

i could take a pretty good guess
working out how you must be feeling
even when your lips are sealed
ill wait out until it begins to peel

i said i wont give up on you
even though for that too work you will have to pull through

I cant explain everything
i myself don't know what you have been through
so i cant relate but ill make time for you
even though you have flash backs of those horrid dates

ill clear the pass I'll make you Laugh
but together were a We and for that we can achieve much much more.

I'll close the window alone
we can open the door together

By Chloe Rae

Tales & Ties

Why would you need a pace monitor
when you cant even feel love
hide behind the curtain of yet another broken riddle
scrap the detox and start the sound of the echoing cause
that's all I'm hearing now for the rest of the world
to hear your same old sorry
yet another messed up story

You maybe old , but your heart to me is still worth gold
ill sing the same old song even if it gets old
you will be there in the morning when i wake up
till when i fall asleep dreaming of the value i have towards you

reaching for insurance cause your slowly beginning to drift
to places which were both having trouble to place

where might you be heading when your time is done
you've packed your bags from a life time of fun

you carry with you a book worth more then money and gold
the book of your life

troubles pain and hope is all in this book which you wish to take with you when your gone

there for, you will carry upon your self a Post stamp and Address to any where in the world

if there is a postal code your more likely to of been there
accents of the globe fit into someone like you

when you are buried ill post stamp you
and mark you as safely arrived

By Chloe Rae

As the days pass you grew older

Playing a game in your Shadow
you cant feel me there
the days have passed from the times where you
knew i was coming from a mile away
we'd play for hours without any power
without anything but our own imagination
and a good concentration

I'd Wish i were a rabbit ,but then again those ears would just go to my head
you'd wish to be famous kicking it with ones that never knew how to love
you seemed to be played as a fool when you knew what you wanted
and aimed higher then the stars right above our spirited heads

I've been to every country in our dreams
iv done everything in my own power to stay this way with you forever
but as the days pass you grew older

i feel like I'm stuck in a age which doesn't suite
sing me a lullaby which isn't written
one off stage show minus the stage thanks to Charlotte
we will hopscotch this one until i Finaly see the full moon turn bright blue

i spark a tear when you drive me to the ocean of unhopeful dreams
i felt like we just ended up wasting time
pass out wishing i could melt

you would be the felt with all the colours in the world
You'd write your unfair lyrics all over my wall
poison my veins with the ink
you know how to colour my world
from being the other way around

I'm not going to apologize for what iv written
only if it sinks in

I'm hoping this become's the plug in the sink
which is now lifted
You dont understand how
i could let the fingers type
without being impolite

By Chloe Rae

Lost focus

Am I the cover of your favourite Magazine?
Or am I a sad story in your personal letter?
I promise when it rains ill always have my umbrella

You know I’ll be here for you when the days are through
Even though you don’t want me too
I’ll lift the wait of your shoulder
Just to put you into your Positive suite
Ditch the baggage which was bringing you down

It just became another lost bag in the terminal
At the International Gate way
Now you’ve moved on you’ll
See the world through
The glasses which you thought you lost

You can’t help but to call every time you have your downs
Your heart begins to make that ringing sound

Pupil’s dilated and your soul falls to the ground
Were in for another bumpy lifestyle
Why won’t you just give up?

Before you were
Always getting attention
Now your not far away from being put in a mental institution

By Chloe Rae

Finding your Duration?

Duration of the time slot in my mind
keeps getting shorter
nothing can change what has happened
lets hope the credits at the end will roll over and feature your name
i'm not sure if they will

My life is like the centre of the film choosing which path to for take

can't it just be like in one of those goosebump books where
you pick your ending and if you don't fall for the ending you
can choose another path

Picking one makes you feel like a fool
cause your afraid you might lose
So what am i going to do?

I know its cliche' going the easy way
but who knows i might start living a life
i only thought could be a one off dream?

The duration is so far slotting its own capacity
what happens when we go into some crazy overload
and the storage is no longer vacancy

what would we talk about then?

only filling in the gaps that weren't able to fit through

By Chloe Rae

"Courtesy Shadows"

courtesy shadows
fragile figures stand as i rest
waking to a sudden current
moving briskly around the room
knocking over everything that was
once important

tragic memories trapped between two in one handshake
mellow eye contact as you
wondering through life watching people pass by
you make me rise when i feel like I'm falling
I've never experienced the occurrence of falling till you caught me
dropping keys

I can Sovereignty the Universe through the reflection in your eyes
Motion Level is slowly rising
no judgement meter
is needed

By Chloe Rae

Stirring Blank

Champagne for my whiskers
Isn’t what I would note as pleasant evening?
Holding back the Noun in my sentence from screaming
Showing the Emotion in a simple Quotation

Why should I revitalize myself?
Writing down what I’m meant to feel
Why was I put here to breathe?

I’m not here to blow this planet into two portions
Split between the ones who agree and the ones who don’t?
That’s all I’ve got
It’s the only thing holding me back

If I can’t see what you’re trying to say how do we know we
Are going to find a good way to
Fixing ourselves in this odd situation

Throw away those Bows because we aren’t turning into any crappy
Decoration

For all those who stuck together when falling
Are like the tape that wraps up independency

Even though our life’s by pass each other without a destination
Or a speed limit like on a highway

Were like on our own version of a rollercoaster yet we control the Motion
Were no longer the Passenger

Champagne for my whiskers
Isn’t what I would note as pleasant evening?
Holding back the Noun in my sentence from screaming
Showing the Emotion in a simple Quotation


So eager to reach for something I truly can’t stand
You could talk as much as you like Yell a little if you feel the need doesn’t mean
I’m gonna hear you

Forget about worries forget about thinking of ever escaping
When the silver lining is only gonna get thinner


By Chloe Rae

For that's where we learnt to grow

No body in the air
Within the limits of which we breathe
I’ve felt this shadow calling me
I can’t see it nor can I feel it,
I hear it calling me Home
Through the trees passing the green leaves
Over the ocean the bluest of its portion
People have vanished
Yet it still stands

The place were I first meet you
Where u threw away
That bark passing on to that horrid sand
Raymond was the only one who seemed to find peace
Among that sand

We’d become lawyers over lunch and nurses over weeks
We were free to be who we wanted to be under that old oak tree that
Sheltered the building which we all feared

Margina had her passing of being the Mother
We knew from small minds
That Margina was born to make a stand and be known
She wasn’t the kind to play peacefully along with us among the horrid sand

Tammy was someone in which I went to sleep
Wondering why someone so young could hold so much anger even though she never showed it
You knew it was always there
She would have married Raymond every day of the week if we could have been there
We had new adventures every single day even though
None of us ever
Grew up too fast to not be interested in
Playing in that old oak tree
Which still stands today?
Will we ever go back to that tree?
That I’d never no? All I can say
It brought us entertainment when
Our minds were buried in the sand
It brought us laughter when we escaped our rooms
On rainy days from being ruled by older student monitors
Just to go hangout together

This is for Margina and Tammy for ever will our souls grow with the tree
For that’s were we learnt to grow.

Love Always Chloe
Xoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxox