Chicago Dreaming

blue is the colour of the world i dreamt waking up too
green for everything earthy gives the world a better feel
yet for i am not near likely to ever wake up to something so peaceful
as i live in the dead smack middle of Chicago
the place were musicians dreams are herd

stars are spotted yet for me stuck in a 2 bedroom studio
apartment with my Uncle Nile
more likely recognized as Mr. Denial by other People passing the loft
french toast in the morning is a strict routine

As i how do i say? Lost without ever being found my parents 12months ago
i wont tell you what happened other then the truth
which you can chose to believe or not
my dad wasn't any Harrie Porter yet he knew things
and my mother well she was his Sidekick
they weren't spy's nor were they undercover agents
they didn't work for anyone as such

oh right they were stalkers
i first found out on my 6th birthday when a letter undressed
arrived and me thinking it was for me

opened it
the letter was painful i remember my mother saying
i can still picture her crying over the ordeal
her tears stuck the paper like the spirit in music
Uncle Nile had one rule in his house and that was to always have fun
which was hard in a lifestyle in which we lived in
i did not attend school

but during the day id read the daily times online
Google Images of people to make me feel better about being myself
being 16 at the moment isnt fun, i should be dating boys , getting into trouble ,
prank calling the teachers of my attending High school

yet here i am

feeling paralyzed my whole world was put in the freezer and froze time
now that its out in the open its now a global warming hazard
cut me blank handed for i am not Emo as the goof
ball at the video store

singing oh baby cut me up with scissors I'll bleed
you down town but sugar you always going to be sweeter

i just don't understand?
i didnt even want to ask
cause they are equally self centred
and don't think outside the sad face they live behind
so as you can work out i don't rent out a lot of DVDs
its the views and the talk shows for me

well uncle Nile was very rich in my views of him
or more lucky as he was left 6 wills in one year including my parents
they didn't leave me anything

but i know being with uncle Nile i wont have to worry about anything

every morning around 5am Nile would take off for work
and i would get up and stand my stage

and rock out the building till there 7am
alarm clocks went off

i never got caught for my hardcore lifestyle mornings
cause we lived around 2 deaf woman

id sit at the dinner table and write until what i had to say sounded to sad
to continue
I'd get josh who was Mrs Fine's grandson ,
he was double my age
but he was entertainment which i was lacking and he liked my
interest in writing and liked my style

we'd go down to the Mall which was right across the main road
aw the smell of fresh bread still lingers
around mixed with the smell of 2nd hand smoke

TO BE CONTINUED